A Page From My Daily..

N o one feel you when you have a bad father. Everyone think that I’m living as a princess. This is why I have no one to talk to and share with my problems and my feelings. Loneliness is killing me; and felling empty is smashing me.

How can I be successful if even I don’t have a family? For me and I think for all normal people, family is the most important thing in someone’s life.

 Today I decide to never go back to my home, because of all this pain that I find here, I found  every time I come a lot of pain and problems, and that makes me wonder: what I did to have this miserable life?

Actually I think about suicide, but, only if I wasn’t Muslim. Thanks to ALLAH that I still think about my religion.

I’m done! I don’t think that I will survive after what happened, and I don’t know how can I live a normal life.

Each time a read the book of my life page, page, I found that I don’t deserve to life, because of all what I did and what they did.

I have to say that I’m not a normal person, and I see that the only way to survive is to say goodbye to all people in my life…

While I’m writing this, I’m crying and listen to “Linkin Park” “Waiting For The End” and actually I’m waiting for the end of all this.

Each moment I decide to start a new start… I failed! 

When I read what I’m writing I see how much I’m lost in my mind and I see how much my thoughts are scattered!