N o one feel you when you have a bad father. Everyone think that I’m living as a princess. This is why I have no one to talk to and share with my problems and my feelings. Loneliness is killing me; and felling empty is smashing me.
How can I be successful if even I don’t have a family? For me and I think for all normal people, family is the most important thing in someone’s life.
Today I decide to never go back to my home, because of all this pain that I find here, I found every time I come a lot of pain and problems, and that makes me wonder: what I did to have this miserable life?
Actually I think about suicide, but, only if I wasn’t Muslim. Thanks to ALLAH that I still think about my religion.
I’m done! I don’t think that I will survive after what happened, and I don’t know how can I live a normal life.
Each time a read the book of my life page, page, I found that I don’t deserve to life, because of all what I did and what they did.
I have to say that I’m not a normal person, and I see that the only way to survive is to say goodbye to all people in my life…
While I’m writing this, I’m crying and listen to “Linkin Park
Each moment I decide to start a new start… I failed!
When I read what I’m writing I see how much I’m lost in my mind and I see how much my thoughts are scattered!
